Saw it Wednesday night. I don’t really have anything to add to what everyone has said beyond… I teared up every time Bruce Banner said or did anything. Even when the other guy was being funny I’d tear up. I liked The Incredible Hulk, but Mark Ruffalo totally blew Edward Norton out of the water here. Second favorite performance is between Scarlett Johansson (because I didn’t know what to expect from her, and she was really good) and RDJ (Because I knew what to expect and some stuff still suprised me.) Everybody else was great too, obviously. I liked Chris Hemsworth’s face. That might be a weird thing to say.

…Get on the ball DC! They’ve proved it can be done; I want mah Justice League movie!

I had jury duty a week ago. Never got around to updating (NOBODY) on that. It went ok. Anxiety was under control, but my body didn’t like anything very much so I was sick for awhile during and after. I didn’t get called in to be a juror so I just sat there for 6 hours or so and read Mockingjay, which I finished later in the day. Really good things, I’m glad I read it.

Yes. O_O

So I always assumed Moai statues and Dodos were both from Easter Island. Yeah, I was way off. I don’t even know if this is a common misconception or if I’m just an idiot. But I had this cool idea for the starting setting for my fantasy story…and it’s AN IDEA(setting-based ideas are a rare occurrence for me). So I might just go with it, but let this show. I know they aren’t related at all; I just thought it was a fun thing.

So I saw The Hunger Games last Friday with some friends. I hadn’t read the book, so I decided to immediately read it after. I’ve got Jury Duty next week(whoopee anxiety,) and my brother ordered the whole trilogy yesterday. So hopefully I’ll have something to read while I’m enjoying the splendors of the American legal system…and being around people. I hate to jump on a bandwagon, but I’m trying to get into reading and I really enjoyed the first book/movie.

So that’s an update thing. Thanks for reading?

tsunderekun:

A little doodle/comic I made based around an ask we got on Social Anxiety Things:

“Do you ever feel like you sort of have some sort of social skills progress bar, and every time you successfully interact with another human being, it goes up a little bit… but then, if you have one bad encounter, it just plummets back down to zero?” 

I’ve had this in my drafts since I started posting, and haven’t really had a reason to reblog it. These past few days have been full of these experiences though, in a lot of varieties. And yeah. It’s really shitty being back at zero.

This feeling is also a big reason why I don’t post often. Unlike how it seems for most people, this stuff translates the same, if not MORE strongly for me online. Because I have so much more time to think about what I say in this context, I tend to overthink and either recoil or manage to mess up what I’m trying to say anyway. And then it’s there. Even if I delete it, for all I know somebody already read it and they know the stupid thing I got wrong or said weird. So I just leave it there, and it bothers me. At least in personal situations I can blame “the moment” but here it’s just bad planning…and stuff @_@. (See? I don’t even have the words to talk about how I can’t always find the words for things.)

I’m remembering why I stopped posting there. It’s just so… cumbersome to upload anything there.

Cleaned up the house today, so I’m trying to get over a chemical headache while posting some things. I keep bailing on all my plans for this blog, because of reasons.

I’m having kind of an artistic crisis right now. I’ve become complacent in my style and the things I’m comfortable drawing and I’m starting to realize a comic isn’t really within my abilities right now. And I’m kind of bored of my style and can’t make any decisions about the character designs. I’m only really having fun drawing monsters lately(which I still need to scan.) In my opinion, I’m really good at character design. I could go on designing new characters for an eternity, but those designs can wait. They’ll come when they need to. Right now I need to be spending time on learning how to apply all these designs and stories I have to SOMETHING. Be it, comics, animation(Which is my ultimate goal,) illustration. Whatever.

Anyway, I need to start working on some things. For example, I can’t draw people(or anything) facing to the right. I’ve always drawn everything facing to the left(I’m right handed, so I guess that’s how it naturally comes to me.) Another weird thing is that when I look at something I’ve drawn left-facing backwards(by putting the drawn side against light…) it looks REALLY OFF, which is disconcerting to me. Does it look off regularly and I just don’t see it? Or does it just not work well flipped? So yeah, that’s a big thing. Other issues include the ever-looming lack of architecture and landscape skills, poor color theory(in my opinion,) and…others…too. All of this is making me think I should take a break from posting anything, but…What have I been doing this whole time?! I’ll try to just post whatever it is I’m working on, good or bad. Gonna scan some monsters now.

So I dunno. I’m in a rut. I’ll try to keep you(whoever you are) posted…

Oh and I AM drawing. I’m just working on something kind of in depth. Trying to build the world for my fantasy story. Mostly monster designs and some characters. Still no Landscapes or Cities or anything, because I’m bad at those things and very stubborn about practicing regardless of how many good ideas I have. I guess my stories will be told on a completely blank backdrop. Constantly :\ Oh, and there are also things going on with the comic thinger. Right now the framework of the plot is starting to look like Black Books and Peep Show jammed together into… a thing(Say, Bernard had to close the store down and move in with Fran. Sort of like that. But not that.) Not sure why British comedy is a central inspiration, but I wouldn’t say it’s a bad one!

I need to start posting the monsters I’m working on. There’s one in particular that I’m really proud of. Unlike most of the others it isn’t inspired by a Final Fantasy or other fantasy RPG enemy. It’s inspired by a Kirby enemy. Just vastly different aesthetically.

And in the spirit of making lists, here’s another. Things I want to draw:

Favorite comedians, actors, etc.

Favorite Let’s Players (Or representations thereof)

Favorite Movie … Things (eg. Paprika, A Clockwork Orange, The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou.)

Video game stuff

…and more (I’m so bad at this.)

I’ve been…busy. Lots of babysitting and things. But I’m making plans for this thing! …That I keep forgetting. and I’ll finish the pokemon thing(and try to keep doing it again.) I sort of overextended myself with the coloring and whatnot, and once I do that I pretty much quit. Also blame Reshiram’s freaky anatomy. White Kyurem is so much better(and I like Zekrom more than Black Kyurem. These sequels are perfect for me!)

Anyway, I’m going to be posting all the stuff I’ve put up here over on my deviantart(go there to see some old rubbish I’ve made.) Try to start using that again(gotta look through literally thousands of updates, and probably unwatch a ton of people.) So yeah, that’s a plan. Thinking about trying to at least post something textual daily. So that I’m, y’know, POSTING.

Also(if I could please get feedback on this) I haven’t been reblogging any of my likes for reference or anything cuz’ I feel like it’s distracting. Should I start a seperate blog for Inspiration and reference material? I’m not sure how difficult it’d be to access likes from this blog to reblog them there, but…Yeah that’s an idea I’m having.

Ideas for future talky ranty posts so I don’t forget: Games I’ve been playing, Nerdfighteria(a rant I feel weird about doing cuz’ it doesn’t really serve a purpose,) my preferred brands of sci-fi and fantasy, Story stuff(after I post more art for those things. I’m going to start making significantly less commentary on the designs and stuff I put up because I realize without any context, it doesn’t really matter at all.)

The color on this one went… NIDOKING! I tried my best to channel Baragon (The best estimation at what Nidoking is actually supposed to be based on) in this one. I guess it went alright. Might revisit Nidoking someday.

I like Nidoking, regardless of his incomprehensible design(what the first gen is kinda infamous for to me, along with completely BLAND ones.) He’s my favorite Gen 1 Poison type, and I love the ground secondary. My biggest issue is the constant changes in toe count(a big gen 1 feature,) which is why I gave him a cloven hoof look for his feet. I tend to like the Godzilla reference pkmn just because I think that’s an interesting and valid basis for inspiration(I’m not some avid Godzilla fan though.) Um. Yeah. Rambly Ramble!